tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-946244233476709467.post8994034115691920810..comments2023-10-05T09:33:18.680-06:00Comments on Prayer and Hope: April 15th - prayer request for Evan...and meHeatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15548473755870852203noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-946244233476709467.post-54923704484514230542009-04-16T16:03:00.000-06:002009-04-16T16:03:00.000-06:00Heather-My heart goes out to you hun. I am so sorr...Heather-My heart goes out to you hun. I am so sorry you are struggling so much and that Evan is having some tummy issues. I am praying for Evan that he will not have any serious issues with his tummy and that he will only move forward from here. I am also keeping you and Brett in my prayers as well. I pray that a sense of peace will wash over you these next couple of weeks as you wait for Evan to come home with you guys. I wish there was something more that I could say to encourage you. Just know that I am praying for your family. *hugs*Ashleyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09678223240231528264noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-946244233476709467.post-52084643377736798542009-04-16T06:53:00.000-06:002009-04-16T06:53:00.000-06:00Hey Heather,
Feeling like you're 'jinxing' everyth...Hey Heather,<br />Feeling like you're 'jinxing' everything is a normal feeling that comes with the loss of a child so late. I had 6 miscarriages before I lost Isaac and Isaiah but I didn't feel like I was 'jinxing' things until they died. Then my whole world crumbled in a minute...the minute I heard that they weren't just sleeping for those two hours, they were gone forever to THIS world. I have since 'waited for the other shoe to drop' in nearly everything. Every time I start to feel a real intense joy, that sorrowful lining is still there lingering and scares me a bit about 'what is going to happen next'. Because we have learned just how crushing it is to have your whole future change in an instant...and death is so final. Even when you know you will be resurrected. Death is still final to the only life we know here. Life changing things (and all deaths are) really turn people upside down for a long time to come. And in many ways you HAVE been cheated by not having your sons with you at home and being 'normal'.(we know God doesn't cheat us, but you have lost what others around you have) Your feelings are normal but they are hard to deal with too. Sending you BIG, HUGE hugs and prayers! You're doing an awesome job keeping it together. And of course the 'reminders' that will come (like Zac's head by your stitches) just add salt to the wounds. I will be praying continuously for Evan and that he will keep growing strong and that he will get good reports from the DR and nurses! Praying the Lord will bless you and comfort you both as you continue this journey!<br />Love in Him,<br />LauraAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-946244233476709467.post-22140563965130476132009-04-15T09:47:00.000-06:002009-04-15T09:47:00.000-06:00Hey Heather,
I vividly remember what it is like to...Hey Heather,<br />I vividly remember what it is like to look at others and wonder if they know how good they have it... but going through our loss made me realize that a lot of people are hurting but just don't show it - like I was trying not to. If anything it's made me more compassionate - and a better mom to our living daughter. But I remember breaking down in the middle of WalMart (of all places!) because of the unfairness of it all... <br />Will pray for Evan's tummy, and your stitches... and just a general sense of REST for you guys. And for "normal"... definitely for "normal"... <br />(And - btw - some nurses just blow things out of proportion as habit. I remember being a new grad and getting report in the morning and thinking, "This person is gonna keel over on me today!" based on what the other nurse was saying. :) But they were pretty much always just fine. Maybe your night nurse is one of those gals. :))Mrs Manzhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15645191645039827042noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-946244233476709467.post-85767232290772910462009-04-15T09:41:00.000-06:002009-04-15T09:41:00.000-06:00Hi Heather,
I have never walked in your shoes...Hi Heather,<br /><br /> I have never walked in your shoes, so honestly, I don't know how you feel. You do capture your feelings very well on this blog, however, so I feel like I understand you well. I am so sorry about your constantly feeling like you are "jinxing" Evan by trying to prepare for him. I am SURE that this is a VERY natural reaction for someone who has been through as much as you and Brett have been through. I know that you are tired of feeling this way. I will pray that in time, these bad feelings will dissipate, and the only feelings left will be warm, happy feelings of finally being a Mommy. (teary-eyed) I am also praying about your incision area. I had a bad recovery with Ian, so I can imagine. I will pray that you will recover from the problem area quickly. <br />Many hugs,<br />Kristina in GAKristinahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11245062652248855517noreply@blogger.com