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A very brave sole shared the video of the memorial video of her daughter who died at birth due to low amniotic fluid. She had low fluid very early on, but thrived. This brave woman also spent many weeks in the hospital while they prayed and hoped for their daughter. As I watched this precious video...my heart ached and the floodgate of tears opened HARD!!! One of the songs they used on the video is called With Hope, by Steven Curtis Chapman...and that song has become to mean so much to me. I want to share these words...

This is not at all how we thought it was supposed to be

We had so many plans for you

We had so many dreams

And now you've gone away and left us with the memories of your smile.

And nothing we can say

And nothing we can do

Can take away the pain, The pain of losing you, but...

We can cry with hope

We can say goodbye with hope

'Cause we know our goodbye is not the end, oh no

And we can grieve with hope

'Cause we believe with hope (there's a place by God's grace)

There's a place where we'll see your face again. We'll see your face again.

And never have I known anything so hard to understand

And never have I questioned more the wisdom of God's plan.

But through the cloud of tears, I see the Father's smile and say well done

And I imagine you, where you wanted most to be.

Seeing all your dreams come true

'Cause now you're home

And now you're free, and...

We have this hope as an anchor

'Cause we believe that everything

God promised us is true, so...

So we can cry with hope

And say goodbye with hope

We wait with hope

And we ache with hope

We hold on with hope

We let go of hope

There is also one other song this woman used for her daughter's video by Selah called I Will Carry You. It too is a very precious song.

There were photographs I wanted to take

Things I wanted to show you

Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes

Who could love you like this? People say that I am brave but I'm not

Trust is I'm barely hanging on.

But there's a greater story

Written long before me

Because He love you like this.

So I will carry you

While your heart beats here

Long beyond the empty cradle

Through the coming years

I will carry you

All my life

And I will praise the One Who's chosen me

To carry you.

Such a short time

Such a long road

All this madness

But I know

That the silence has brought me to His voice

And He says...

I've shown her photographs of time beginning

Walked her through the parted seas

Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes

Who could love her like this?

I will carry you

While your heart beats here

Long beyond the empty cradle

Through the coming years.

I will carry you

All your life

And I will praise the One Who's chosen me

To carry you.

Those who were at Zac's funeral saw the memorial video that Brett created of the time I carried the boys, our short days together with Zac and our final moments together. The songs that we played on that video were songs I played in faith every day I carried our boys and every day I lived at the hospital. Do you know...I haven't been able to listen to either one of those songs since!! Right now it just hurts too much. But music has this way of healing...and one day I will listen to those songs and remember the joyful moments with Zac, and realize the truth those lyrics carried for both my boys...in very different ways!

Thank goodness for music.