I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord
Psalm 27: 13-14

Monday, April 27, 2009

Little Evan moving forward!!

Well yesterday was pretty fun! I got to the hospital and was informed of three new changes!! 1) Evan is able to try to start nursing! 2) Evan is ready to have his isolette top removed! 3) Evan is ready to start demand feeding! WOWZERS! You know these things are eventually going to happen, but when you hear those beautiful words of moving forward...it's crazy! I find that I'm so "used" to where we are at right now that these new developments threw me for a loop...even though it was a wonderful loop! I was so excited and so proud of Evan!! Evan has been bottle feeding exclusively for a few days now and does amazing. So yesterday we attempted nursing a couple of times which was kind of funny for both of us. He was tired out at the two feeds we tried at, so he didn't have the greatest of "oomph". But it was still an amazing bonding experience! And I think once we get the hang of it and Evan figures out the new feeding method...I will love it. Because Evan is ready for so many new changes they decided to introduce the changes slowly so it didn't stress him out by doing all three at once. I chose to start with nursing. And this morning when I spoke to his night nurse she said she was going to let the doctor know on rounds that she thinks he's ready to demand feed. That means his current schedule gets thrown out the window, and I am on call for when he is ready to eat. They will call me when he begins to wake up and stir and while I'm on my way to the hospital they will begin doing his vitals. This won't be a problem during the day since I'm always there, but it will be interesting during the night! But I'm pumped! I'm kinda hoping that when I arrive at the hospital today that I see his isolette top off too :) But we'll see. I won't be disappointed as everything is about what Evan is ready for. Not me! :) I'm feeling much better from my infection. Still a bit tender, but I think now it's that my stomach is trying to relearn what it was before being pregnant. I admit that I feel frustrated because I want to be able to start working out more so I can begin to look a bit more my old self. Keep praying for Evan as he begins his new changes!! Brett was away over the weekend and I have to admit that I kinda enjoyed the alone nights with just me and Evan! The nights are just so much more calm and quiet in the unit, and our snuggle times were precious. I would feed Evan his bottle, the rest him on my chest as he slept peacefully and would read him one of our night time books. Ahhhhhh, it was great. But is was also WONDERFUL to have Brett back home! And even Evan perked up when he heard Brett's voice. It was cool! On Saturday night I had a couple of the nurses tell me "it won't be much longer!" One nurse in particular said "Heather, it's not as far away as you might think! But I'm going to miss you!" I thought that was sweet. You definitely form relationships and friendships with these amazing people. And I really will miss seeing some of these angels on a daily basis. But I won't miss the hospital! This morning I was sitting in my glider chair and I suddenly I felt nervous about Evan coming home! With these new changes we know we are headed in the right direction. But at the hospital Evan has the very best care and is watched day and night...and if anything should occur they are right there ready for it. I don't think I'll sleep a wink for...oooooooh, until he's at least 5 years old! hee hee hee. And I've suddenly realized just how much I need to get in gear for Evan's home coming!! If I keep living as we have been living, nothing will be ready! So it's soon time to book the cleaner for our furnace and vents, and clean the carpet in Evan's room and our room! And then begins the big clean! WOW!!!!!! Is this really happening?! Is it okay to start feeling excited?! It feels strange to feel excitement. Well, I should go. Soon time to go see my little man!


  1. Hi Heather!

    I can sense your excitement in your post, and it brings me such JOY! Good luck with getting your cleaning done in time!

    Love in Christ,
    Kristina in GA

  2. Heather-I am so excited about Evan's positive changes! How awesome is that??? :) I wanted to let you know that there is a baby monitor available at Babies R Us and online at Amazon.com called Angel Care and it monitors the babies breathing and whatnot and alarms if the baby stops moving (breathing). All of the moms in our NICU are getting it as well. :) It helps bring peace of mind I have heard. You can read about it online. Also, I hear you with the nurses being your friends...I dont know what i would do without them sometimes. They are all so special and it helps to have wonderful people taking care of your babies doesnt it? I love hearing that Evan is doing so well. Hopefully he can come home very soon. :) I too am getting the "cleaning bug." On my "to do" list this week is getting car seats put in the car, having the carpets steamed, and deep cleaning my house. :) Oh the fun times right? Hope all is well!

  3. Hooray! Those are some amazing steps forward!
    In Christ,

  4. I am so glad to hear about little Evan's progress! Continuing to pray for you guys.


  5. Hi Heather,
    I hope that you don't mind that Kelli gave me your blog site. I have read every post and been praying for you guys along your journey. I just needed to share with you what an amazing woman I think you are. I appreciate the strong faith that is so very evident through all that you and Brett have been through. I also admire how open and honest you are about everything that you are feeling and yet you are still so positive - even on days that have been so difficult. I am inspired by the love you have for your husband and how you speak so highly of him and I am sure that if he was sharing in some of these posts that he would also speak of the adoration and overwhelming love he has for you that has carried you both through this time in your lives. I am thankful to God for the blessings of so many around you that have been there every step of the way and for the miracles that have been evident in your journey. Prayers will continue for your family and for Evan's continued growth and strength.
    Jenn Lockhart