I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord
Psalm 27: 13-14

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Allow me to introduce you to our son Zac...

The above is where Zac took his last breath. In my arms and in to heavens hands.
Brett holding his first born son as Zac slowly and peacefully continued to slip away
Removing tubes so that we could be alone with Zac to hold him, love him and be with him
Zac's first day
Mommy and daddy with our little Zac
Hi everyone. The above pictures are of Zac. They aren't going in the proper order...the joy of modern technology, but the explanations are under each. I will post separately pictures of Evan as this won't allow me to post things in order.
The pain of our reality in the loss of Zac is more than I can express. Yet, the love and joy we live in watching Evan growing daily fills our hearts.
This Saturday we are having Zac's funeral. Brett has been unbelievable. Again...my rock. He faced the funeral home and mediated decisions for me keeping me at a safe distance from all that I am sick to face. While he has dealt with most arrangements it has allowed me to be at the hospital with Evan. I just can't leave him alone. I need to be with him, to see and watch with my own eyes how well he is doing.
Brett has created the most precious slide show of Zac's short but full life through our eyes. Each time I watch it...the sobs just can not be controlled.
We welcome you to be a part of Zac's celebration of life. The funeral is at Elim Tabernacle at 11am. A day I never imagined I would be facing.
I believe that God has touched many through our journey, and through the strength that Zac had. I choose to believe that Zac's legacy will be that I have been able to share my faith and my feelings through what we were experiencing together. I choose to believe that God has used Zac's precious life for such amazing purpose. And I pray with all my heart that this will not be forgotten.
The journey is not over. The miracles are not yet closed. We still have our precious Evan in NICU. Our precious Evan that continues the witness of miracles. Today one of my son's amazing nurses confided how Zac and Evan entered her heart. She bought them a bedtime story that she would read to her own children. With tears in her eyes she handed it to me. And we hugged and shed some tears. She was one of Zac's nurses too. And we know how deeply she cared for him! And how much she cares for Evan. It's too sweet...the pride she shows in telling me how absolutely perfect Evan is and how amazingly well he is doing. This precious woman is an angel watching over my Evan, and who watched diligently over our Zac.
I can not thank these precious nurses for their love and care over Zac, and now continuing over our precious Evan! We are blessed, as is our little Evan. I know that Evan is in good hands. Admittedly I'm jealous that I can't be the one pouring all myself out in his care. But that time will come when we finally bring him home!
Our boys have been a witness to many, and Evan continues the legacy of miracles and God's goodness.


  1. He's beautiful - and perfect. I think that he looks like you too, Heather. I wish that I could come to the funeral. If there was any way possible, I would be there. ((((((((((((Heather and Brett)))))))))))))

  2. Oh Heather and Brett,
    He is just GORGEOUS! What a beautiful little boy! The pictures are just precious. I am praying for you both (and Evan) as you face Zac's funeral. I know how very hard it will be and I so wish I could be there to give you a big hug. Sending much prayers and love your way! Thank you for sharing him with us...just seeing him warms my heart!

  3. Thank you for allowing us the great honor to "be with you" in pictures as your son took his last earthly breath and entered the gates of Heaven. I am humbled and honored that you would entrust us with such an intimate passage. Both of your boys are true miracles and so beautiful. {hug}