Friday, February 20, 2009
Feb 20 - Week three in hospital
So as usual the morning begins bright and early with Dr. D coming in on rounds and seeing how I'm doing. This morning we just chatted briefly about nothing heavy (thank goodness!) and then before he left he said "keep crossing your fingers". Oh boy...thank goodness I have something much better to rely on than just crossing my fingers. A God who knows my boys by name and has a special destiny for each of them. Then Dr. M came in and we chatted for a while. I told her I feel so lost because I don't get any prenatal classes and I just have no idea what to expect, what signs of labor to look for, NOTHING!! So she went over signs to watch for and that helped so much! She said we'll just keep taking it a day at a time, and that things are going really well right now. She said that if next weeks ultra sound shows any signs that we've gotten as much time as we are going to get with these boys brewing in me...then we move forward and prepare for their arrival! WOWZERS!! It's really tough when you aren't a planned c-section and just taking these things a day at a time. I told her I'm just worried that if a situation arose where we needed to delivery right away that Brett wouldn't have time to get here. She said that even in a case of an emergency it will still take them 10-20 minutes to prep me and get the NICU teams in order (each of my boys will have their own team) so chances are that Brett would still have time to make it. The goal is to have him there...but there is a chance that if he were farther than from home he may not make it. That would break my heart because I am going to be such an emotional wreck when they take me and I'm going to be so worried that the boys are okay...and I really don't want to have to deal with that alone. I need Brett by my side. I need his strength right there beside me, and I need to hear his voice and see the assurance on his face. We are a team, and I need him there with me. So...pray that all works out that he will be right there when our sons enter this world! Anyhow...my nurse for the day is SOOOO hilarious!!! She seriously had me in tears we were laughing so hard. I needed that. She came in my room with a huge smile on her face and just said "I am SO excited that you are still here!!!! I am so proud of you!!! I've been off for two weeks, so when I saw that you were still here I just got so excited!! Every day is just icing on the cake!!!" I told her how I was feeling stressed by well-meaning cheers of how long people thought I'd be here for, and that if I didn't meet those goals I would feel like a failure. I said my hope is to make it at least one more week. She just looked at me and said "don't you do that to yourself! You be proud of each DAY you make it through, and then when a new week begins so celebrate the week you just made it through!" Then the funny part. I told her how when our little guy (who is laying across my bladder) moves, stretches or does one of his belly flops I instantly have to get to the bathroom. She said "oh dear...at this point who cares...just pee your pants if you can't make it!" I just about peed my pants with laughter right there!! Then she went on to say "just wait until it's an age thing! I can't even jump on the trampoline anymore, and watch out when I laugh or cough!" Ohhh my word, we were laughing so hard. God must have known I needed this dear soul in my day today to remind me to LAUGH HARD, and laugh well! The boys heart rates are perfect as always. I love hearing those heart beats. They are the best! I feel much more light hearted today, and a bit more strengthened. God has been doing such amazing things through all of this...how could I start to doubt things now just because I'm getting a bit nervous about their arrival!? He has provided us 3 amazing weeks, and it providing us each new day we are blessed with. He knows when these boys are to arrive, and He will take care of the situation and will take care of me and the boys in delivery. He has brought a new strength and closeness for Brett and I...and I couldn't be more grateful. Brett has always been my greatest joy...but it just keeps getting stronger and stronger! He is an amazing husband, and he is going to be the most amazing daddy!!! I can hardly wait to see his face melt when we see our babies! OH MY GOONESS...after almost 8 years...our sons are almost here!